I found that actually by having my own blog, it calms my nerves down. Or rather, it's a place where i can just post and say anything that i want to say. It might seem rather normal for everyone(yeah of course you can say anything and everything in your own blog) but the case for me is that, this blog kinda represents the inner me at some point. I had not been taking care of it too long so maybe that's the reason why I actually broke down at some point in this 20th year of my life.
Broke down?
Why?
Stress it is. Quite amazing though I would like to admit, the power of mindset and thinking. I had been reading on this one book of my lecturer (he gave away a number of books in the faculty), titled "You Can Be Happy No Matter What : Five Principles For Keeping Life Perspective" by Richard Carlson, it lead me to think about how to control my own mind; all the thoughts that had pass through, both negative and positive. I had only starting reading it this afternoon but it already helped me get through the rest of the day with ease.
He mentioned a sentence in his book, " we are the thinkers of our own thoughts", so circumstances does not define us, but it is the way that we think of the circumstances that we had,and how we choose to face it.
The reason that I had taken up the book, well it is obvious, I am trying to find happiness in all the things that I do, because at one point, I lost myself, due to all the judgement and comments that I had received. I thought I needed to change myself according to the circumstances and people's opinion, and so I did.
As a 20 year-old person, I had been a person who's striving for knowledge and all life has to offer to me, but doing so without uncovering my real personality is really hard, as I constantly compare myself with others, for example how can she do some thing so great, have many friends that kept coming back to her while I don't. Then I'll start thinking about is it about my communication skills, maybe I'm not a people person. (well kinda ahhaha)
This is the point where the book's come handy. I need to stop thinking thoughts that could hurt me,dismiss them out of my mind because it only does damage to myself instead of making me happier.
So lesson learnt is that you can make yourself happy, regardless of the circumstances you're in. Don't give in to your thoughts, because you are the master of your own mind, learn to control your thoughts and then you'll be happy!
That's all for now.
Thanks for reading !
(this blog kinda works like a diary for me now, so if you find it uncomfortable reading the contents just ignore my blog haha)
Merry Christmas to everyone in advance!
